im here!!

ahahah i wasn't really inspired by anything lately so i havent been writting anything on here sorwee :P

but.

i have been having horrible sleep lately

and today i think i figured it out

im always so nervous lately... and i dunno why

i was SO nervous on the day i had to teach my first dance class at school (which i shouldn't be because i've taught so many times in my life PLUS this is not a paid class so i dun earn shit so i wouldnt get criticized by anyone)

but after the class finished

and cuz it was one of the BEST CLASS i've ever taught

it felt extra good

but then, yesterday

i got nervous about school or sumthing

like a motor inside of me just started roaring or sumthing

i started doing homework and presentations thats like... due in 2 weeks?

but after that it felt good too

hahah i learnt a lot about costa rica.

(apparently if u die in costa rica, u are immediately buried in the same day, and ure death would be broadcasted on the tv station of costa rica, and even though from your death til the burial might only be a few hours apart, all ure frds and relatives in costa rica would be able to come cuz they all watch the tv... hahaa weird! but cool i guess)

yesterday, i decided to get my bf and me matching shirts

i liked them a long time ago but i didn't have enough money

when he got it he looked very surprise

but maybe cuz i was just thinking too much

he didn't seem as excited when i told him i got one too

was it cuz he thought i only got him a shirt cuz i got myself one?

im constantly paranoid about him and this girl

and i dunno why

and im doing weird shit to try and figure out if this probably false imagination i have is false or not

sometimes when he goes and teach english

i think

maybe hes meeting that other girl

when he went drinking with his co workers yesterday night

i thought maybe hes late home cuz he met up with her afterwards or sumthing

im so nervous lately

and so tired

but i can't sleep.