joyce=...

joyce =?

well, for a fact i know that joyce has been...

a) a barista

b) a model

c) a singer (demos and self performances)

d) a dancer

e) a stationary designer (dun like it.)

f) a painter (sort of)

g) a receptionist (for a dance studio...)

joyce can try to become...

a) a coffee shop owner (when i make enough money haha)

b) *a stylist (im seriously thinking about this but i have no idea where to start)

c) a... singer... (i dunno.)

d) *a dancer (since i've already seriously started, but i dunno...)

e) illustrator. no more designing of products, the bosses dun know what the fuck they want neways

f) * a painter (this sounds SO great, if people actually wanna buy my stuff.)

g) hire a receptionist for MY own business (such as a dance studio) hahahaa

i was talking to my close guy frd yesterday night about all these and he said

nothings stable no more

u have a higher chance in succeding if you choose the job you like

and an excuse to fail if you chose otherwise

wise advices

but dun solve my problem at all :(...

this other frd

told me everything comes from experience

and i achknowledge that too

but the problem is

what should i devote my time to to get experience out of it??

and my bf

tells me i have already achieved a lot in life

and yeh, i guess so

but that makes me wanna strive for even more

but where? which aspect??

i looked through my new semester courses

i can actually graduate on time without killing myself

all the stress and worry i had was a waste of my time

see.

i just drive myself crazy by stupid thoughts that are mostly not confirmed concepts haha

i love to dance

its so much fun

but...

same with singing,

is it the career i want?

i graduate with my BA is visual arts

and i've realized

i actually love to draw as well.

i want to do something artsy, and i know i can do it

but does that mean im settling for the more stable job, but not reaching for my desires?

life is a bitch

but im off to SAIPAN TONIGHT

so fuck it

i shall now drive myself crazy by worrying about the weather there

haha.

PS my online portfolio for EVERYTHING i've done in life in the making, feel free to go and look through ittt!!

http://www.fotop.net/tsangly

<3