chillin...

i really gotta learn to stop comparing myself to other people.

im constantly just wishing that i can achieve more than other people

which is unobtainable really

but even though i realize this fact

i still compare

and feel shit about myself afterwards.

why is vanessa hudgens so pretty? (after reading this month's gossip)

why are some people so rich? (after re-watching MTV cribs)

why is she so lucky? (after knowing a lot of people are now taking their dancing career to a much higher level, getting so much more opportunities that im missing out on)

why aren't i doing shit? (after knowing that the swine flu made the uni closed so i have no school next week)

see.

the buddhist person my mom talked to was so true

i think way too much

and usually negative thoughts.

it really sucks

ive been watching a lot of dance videos again on youtube since i have nothing better to do

totally in love with philip geniza

way too sexy.

but im just sitting there admiring

eating mcdonalds

+ a curry udon

(i dunno why i ate so much)

and blaming life.

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