relationships...

are so interesting.

they make me upset at first

and when i understand why the person did what they did

or if its just me being sensitive

or not sensitive enough

i become happy.

because i've learnt about the person im having the relationship with

i've learnt about myself

and what a relationship really is.

that day i got upset at my second bff.

she dances with me, and shes been pretty stressed about her own personally life

so i didn't take it personally when she got frustrated and angry

but maybe because i sucked it all in without telling her

i started sucking in stuff that wasn't even really anything

i got upset because she said i cut the song weird

i got upset because she laughed at the play back of our dance show

i got upset because i thought she was doing it on purpose

but in actual fact

she said i cut the song weird because she just thought because it was so different from before she needed time to familiarize with it

she laughed at the playback because she was laughing at herself

and she did childish stuff on purpose because she thought i didn't care.

and that was cute, in a way

because that showed how much we cared

and how little stuff can carry SUCH different connotations to it to me and her

but its all good now :D

i've got my money back

the weathers nice

i can go shopping and eat mcdonalds if i wanted to

i should be travelling with the bf soon

i should be teaching with the second bff soon

life is not that bad.

and out of no where

i started to paint today

i realized,

my hard work in GCSE art and IB art and UBC VA is paying off

i actually

LIKE my work.

and i think other people would too.

and that makes me feel so good, so so so good.

and out of no where

i started to watch my old dance clips

i realizd,

its been 3 years standing on stages, a year of teaching and a year of doing professional dancer stuff,

and im actually IMPROVING,

and that i am not shy to let people see me

or let me see myself through a video clip now,

and that feels SO good.

this is the only moment which i feel

"yeh joyce, maybe you should graduate and do something art related"

this is the important moment of which makes me feel

"yeh joyce, you shouldn't give up on dancing even though its stressing you out so bad"

:]

OH

and i had another interesting health care class today

and i think i really enjoy that class

not only because the stuff is interesting

and relatable to everyone

its because the prof respects and appreciates my ideas.

i should write a book on how profs should teach their classes so their students don't fall asleep and skive. ahhaa

loving life

needing sun

kewyee :]