art...

ok let me just blab on other stuff first

i have never in my life felt so poor

never

been unable to eat mcdonalds because i can not afford it

never

been unable to go to school because i dun have enough to pay for the bus

and also

never

been so unsure and insecure about my own life

it feels like i cant control anything

and i can just break down and cry

ok.

so yeh i was randomly surfing youtube with my bf one night

and we started watching all these random make up and nails tutorial by people

and then i got linked to this other random make up tutorial

which linked to this one about goth make up

and then it linked to marilyn manson

and guess what

he is one hell of a guy

crazy crazy painter

totally in LOVE with his works

i again feel like nothing

hahah.

:]

oh, and happy mothers day <3