2011...

is a blast.
the thing is, it started off so great
theres no way it won't end better.

i realized the importance of "understanding" by the beginning of this year.
that everything can be in your control
only if you understood it properly.

understanding does not necessarily mean accepting
or agreeing
it just means you understand.

see,
i failed upon a relationship as i failed to understand the other person.
and i still don't
plus i do not want to no more.

the inability to understand makes one vulnerable
the ability to understand makes one stronger

i have transformed myself from the prior to the latter.

the "un-wanting-ness" to understand
either leads to less knowledge
or the de-valuing of that knowledge in your own mind.

i've found out what is valuable knowledge to me in 2011.

its such a blessing to receive the increasing amount of attention
due to the increasing quality of my "works"

whether just a daily styled up fashion outfit
or a quote i've pick out from class
or my dance choreography
or my artworks/ concepts...

everything seems to fall in such a beautifully paced flow.

steadily they are all reaching a climax
where i myself do not realize it
but others do.

just like what a fellow classmate said in class today
"you only see a part of yourself
whilst others see you as a whole."

you
recognize my advancements before myself.
and hearing that from others makes me more proud and happy than just realizing it myself.


i love facebook
it links people
gives us a chance to spur out everything
and know the public will see it
but needs not to face front with the pressure of exposing the inner part of yourself

people influence me
i influence people

especially for someone who thinks so much (me)
i gain so much from a simple "like"
or a simple "accepted you as a friend"
i feel so much more in place with the world with facebook
and thats weird
because facebook is nothing but a far away program
ran by someone whom i don't know
and will probably never know
but he/she who sets the rules on this thing
prepares and repairs this thing
makes me emotionally fulfilled.


<3 PS. so random but the new firefox browser makes everything thats old seems new again. :]