everyone...

in a society like this

no matter how mentally strong you were born to be

to have developed to be through life

everyone write blogs now.

whether to record

to remind

or just for the sake of it

everyone is sharing so much of their life on the internet

and its not just because its the trend

come on

the trend is to wear pink does not mean everyone will wear pink

but we're talking everyone has some sort of an online device of which they post their inner feelings onto

to an extent, its the struggle of people

wanting more attention from others

the loosing of identity

the strengthening of self existence.

i have a lot of stuff on the internet

and yes

to be honest, i rely on the recognition of others to feel alive

i once told my dad that

feeling stupid cuz of it

but he simply told me

"aren't we all like that?"

somehow, human beings tend to feel better when other people are going through the same things of which one presumes/ think is a negative thing

i do too

until recently.

when i told my loved ones i am in trouble

they tell me they are too

and maybe even more difficult times

i did not feel a teeny bit better

i felt worst.

the world is in a pretty horrible state somehow

i miss the quietness in japan

yet i adore the strength and fire in hong kong people

i however,

hold conflicting feelings here and there

and end up not knowing what to do, what to say, what to think

even my blogs all sound different.

to be strong is so hard

to maintain the fire for ones dream seems impossible

thankfully i went to dance classes

ones of which i was dreaming to go to

and it made me realize that...

i can do it too.

:]