can you just tell me?

do you know what this is?
if you do, can you tell me
before i believe in what i think it is
and then get proven by reality
that i have always been wrong?

i can't keep up
or is it you not keeping up?

the balance is corrupted
and when things are grey
i do not understand
i fear
and i panic.

over analyzing
things that are simple
but could be more


one or none


green or red


hi or bye




maybes are torturous
i want answers
and i hate myself for demanding them

wheres the freedom to anticipate
the room to imagine
the air to flow
without the constraints of
proof.

i want proof.
i hate indecisiveness

decide
with me.
for me.

so i can just
be me.